please give me some advice i am lost

How old are you? The armed forces might give you a chance to get things rolling again and provide some additional job training. If you don't really wanna go to war etc I'd go for something like the coast guard. You'd be amazed how much something to do will improve your outlook and give you a sense of purpose. I know my advice isn't for everyone but being self sufficient again will do wonders for your emotional state. It's as simple as keeping your head down, doing what they ask, and just stay out of the teenage high school level drama you'll encounter here and there. Military service is a great inroads to other service jobs like fire fighter etc as well. Simple stability is highly underrated.

typo edit: changed keeping your head own to down. But keeping your head your own is good as well :)

At the age of 33 I had just got out of an abusive relationship that made me want to kill myself, was long term under employed and lost. To top it off, my (foreign) ex decided to take my son back to her country and not to teach him English just out of spite.

Now I'm 40, I'm living where I've always wanted to live, am CFO of a large new company, married and in the best relationship I've ever had. I'm happy in a way that I've never been before, in a way that I've not seen many people before.

Keep going mate, the depths are as low as the highs will be high. You'll get there.

Saverem hit a homerun. Navy, Coast Guard- sounds like a really sensible plan and your future will be secure. It won't be easy I'm sure but the opportunities are limitless. Since you are currently unemployed, start a garden (tomatoes, peppers, cantaloupe) and start running. Put on some shorts and a t-shirt with a pair of gym shoes and start running. Get your body and your brain into shape- you will not believe how good you will feel. Don't plan to be homeless! you have your whole life ahead of you- some people don't get started until their 40's. Look up and ahead. Please keep us posted and be well.

You've had it rough, that's for sure. But if you're willing to consider killing yourself over a couple of whores and some money troubles, I think its worth considering that you place value in all the wrong things.

Get out from under. Look for a job closer to where you live. If you're really in the middle of nowhere, someone will surely pay you to cut some firewood for a little extra cash on the side. Do some networking. Fuck the car, get a scooter. Some places don't even require a license to ride one.

Pay down your debts, get on your feet, and go find a dream to chase. Do something for you, because it sounds like too many of your relationships have been about other people.

Late 20's can be a crazy time, shit is starting to sink in that you have to plan for the future but haven't really picked that direction. You're nervous and confused but still worried about making another bad choice and you have to do something but it's overwhelming. Don't be scared just start taking steps.

Start with getting a replacement birth certificate: https://www.usa.gov/replace-vital-documents

I can't give you advice on your current situation, but I can give you future advice: Stop moving in and sharing expenses with women you barely know. That's literally the best advice I can give you. Get on your feet again (because you've done it before, so I know you can do it again), get your life sorted. When you meet a girl next time, actually date her and get to know her for a long, long time, then if you both decide marriage is right, then you can think about actually living and acting like a married couple.

One of the biggest lies we've been brainwashed into believing is normal and healthy and totally works all the time is the hollywood "I'm so in love with this person I just met, let's move in, combine our expenses, intertwine our entire lives within months, and then live happily ever after."

Wow, so this was a really long and difficult read. It sounds like you might be drunk or maybe just don't have a good typing standard. Either way, I read everything and that was a damn emotional rollercoaster.

You sound like you have had a really shitty couple of years. I understand the pain, and I know how crazy the world is. But from what you have described here there seems to be a lot missing from the story. You have uncannily attracted misfortune in such a way that causes me to question how you act in a day to day profile. What kind of person are you, actually?

You registered 4 months ago and yet have not posted a single thing. If you were going to just lurk this whole time, why did you make an account? You haven't even made an introduction yet. As far as anyone knows, this is your introduction post.

So tell us, why is it that you have had such a shitty life so far? Why have you made these decisions? Because in the end, you are a product of your own environment. I hold myself to the same value. I am what I have decided.

Let's examine your post for a second. You started off in high school dating the first girl that paid you attention. She went on to college and you didn't. Her decision to go to college was for a fruitless degree, and you decided to find work so you could support yourself and your newfound love. You worked hard, and she rode on squat free until she found a job. This job didn't pay well, and both of you eventually realized that her degree was bullshit and your lives weren't going anywhere.

So you lost money, and had to move into somebody else's house. Not only was it "somebody else's house", it was her parents house. This immediately emasculates you, and therefore destroys any semblance of a relationship you held with this girl. She no longer viewed you as the dominant care giver, and so she looked for that elsewhere.

You need to learn a few lessons about women, dude. If you don't give it to them, they will find it somewhere else. No matter what it is. And don't ever be a "yes-man". You stick up for yourself, don't lose your character just for the sake of love. I'm telling you, its not worth it. And if she is any respectable woman in her own sense, she will admire you for your bravery.

I've rambled a bit here, but PM me if you want to talk more in depth.

EDIT: somebody downvoted me? Care to explain why?

Hey guys, update here.

Couldn't get into the military for allergy reasons unfortunately, but I got a back pack packed with necessities and I am beginning my life as a homeless person. Thank you every for the advice, I'm sure I'll find my way one day. Alright, bye.

My advice; Join the army.

If you have a record and they don’t let you join, go get a welders certificate. It doesn’t take that long to get, community colleges offer courses for it usually; you can get paid like $8k a month quick.

Underwater welders are paid even more, more dangerous.

Good luck to you. Stay away from shady women and don’t do drugs. Make sure you’re brother knows how much you appreciate him for treating you like proper family.

Edit: reefer is probably still okay

Suicide is just fucking retarded. Life is long and you have no idea how well things can still turn around for you. The tough times you are going through are strengthening you. When things do turn around for you, you'll be able to truly appriciate the good times because of your hardship. I know you can't see it now, but there is absolutely benefits to hard times.

I didn't read any. Don't be a little bitch. Only you determine what is up or down even when right or wrong.