Same. I fantasize about moving out to Idaho or Utah, getting a bunch of land growing, raising and hunting my own food. I miss having a garden. I'd do it tomorrow, I can definitely afford it now, but I'm living with my brother with brain cancer who doesn't want to move.
I've never been one into gardening, despite my few attempts at cultivating a particular plant. But my gf is big into it. I'm not opposed just don't get the same gratification from it. I dunno if I could deal with remote wilderness living. I'd probably fair better than most people. But not in the long run.
Sorry to hear about your brother. That's a particularly rough one. It's admirable what you're doing.
I don't even know what's going on anymore these days.