I've only been able to do it at all for maybe the last year or two. Before that, it was just pointless and annoying, but then somehow it just clicked.
Everybody finds something different there. I thought this was an especially good description of the "working out" metaphor:
https://np.reddit.com/r/leaves/comments/85u18y/some_notes_and_encouragement_on_meditation_from/
I've only been able to do it at all for maybe the last year or two. Before that, it was just pointless and annoying, but then somehow it just clicked.
Everybody finds something different there. I thought this was an especially good description of the "working out" metaphor:
https://np.reddit.com/r/leaves/comments/85u18y/some_notes_and_encouragement_on_meditation_from/
I agree with your findings. I think it affects different people in different ways, and what a person is try to get from it is critical.
I started meditation a long time ago in an effort to find order and structure in a chaotic mind.
At first it didn't really work, until I changed my focus to just empty my mind. Eventually it worked. It did help me learn to sort through and control my thinking better. Now I mostly use meditation for 'contemplation' (Deep thinking while stoned).
If life gets chaotic or emotional I still use it to slow my thinking, but it's mostly about relaxation now.
I drawn to the idea of a sensory deprivation tank. I've hear talking about his, Joe Rogan and I want to try meditating in one.