it’s hard having children with my character flaws… I’m afraid of getting close to people and I don’t really enjoy people outside the family that much anymore. I’ve just been fucked over too many times (stolen from, cheated on, you name it, it’s happened, I’m about 6k short from what I should have). Fortunately I picked a good girl and she gave me children but I’m still weary of even her lol. just a bit. I’ve got this deep distrust in people.
My older daughter (1.5 years old this month) and I have gotten super duper close… She had a fever last night and had to give her a bath at 2:30 am to cool her down. I’m torn and changing because it's responsibility and a relationship and though that's hard for me… I love it. It literally changes your character just loving someone so much.
I guess I’m feeling that a lot atm… I’m much less of a dick than normal and I’m just happy. Content even… it’s the weirdest feeling changing without forcing yourself. It’s just happening.
Being a dad kicks ass
Yeah, becoming a parent absolutely changes you. Anybody that says otherwise is a damn liar. I had a lot more passion to work on my career and stuff 5 years ago, now... ehh, I'm fine, this is good. What I've got is good enough and that's fine, I don't want to sacrifice my relationship with my family for a little more money.