it’s hard having children with my character flaws… I’m afraid of getting close to people and I don’t really enjoy people outside the family that much anymore. I’ve just been fucked over too many times (stolen from, cheated on, you name it, it’s happened, I’m about 6k short from what I should have). Fortunately I picked a good girl and she gave me children but I’m still weary of even her lol. just a bit. I’ve got this deep distrust in people.
My older daughter (1.5 years old this month) and I have gotten super duper close… She had a fever last night and had to give her a bath at 2:30 am to cool her down. I’m torn and changing because it's responsibility and a relationship and though that's hard for me… I love it. It literally changes your character just loving someone so much.
I guess I’m feeling that a lot atm… I’m much less of a dick than normal and I’m just happy. Content even… it’s the weirdest feeling changing without forcing yourself. It’s just happening.
Being a dad kicks ass
Having kids is so fun! All my best friends had kids and now they're boring as hell and can never go out and do fun thing with me. They barely pay attention to me even when they come visit me because it's all about the kid. Oh joy, oh happiness!
Sorry, I just had to let that out. I re-read what i wrote and, though true, it seems so selfish. I am happy they are happy and am adjusting. Now I go out and have fun with myself.
I have a ton of nephews and nieces. Little girls are weird and hilarious. Bet your having loads of fun.